Wednesday, October 14, 2026

 Life makes me ache
 with a pain deep in my chest
Though there's joy in the mourning 
 there's also a kind of helplessness 
 like I'm a leaf tossed on the surface of a vsst sea
 Marveling at the lightnings and the thunderings
 even as I'm drowning 

The enormity of it all
 causes the ache to rise and fall
It's sometimes near the surface 
 sometimes buried deep
Sometimes I laugh
 sometimes I weep
 but the ache of living is never far from me

The innocence of a child
 is my lofty goal
 to take no care for thoughts
 and no thoughts for cares
 that burden my soul
To trust my Father 
 like His son Jesus did -
 never straying from the love that He gives
Able to truly love
 in each moment like it's all there is

Come to Me
 all of ye
 who are weary
 and laden with heavy
 burdens and cares
 and I will give you rest
 if with Me you'll share
 yes, share your heart with Me
 For I love you faithfully 
 I am not as men
 that I would lie
 or waver or doubt
 My love for you
 is always true
 inside and out

Monday, October 12, 2026

Things I can't believe

 

I can't believe 
 The Lord would abandon me.
And I can't believe 
 there is no grace or mercy.
I can't believe 
 God's heart doesn't  breaks with grief
 every time He sees
 another soul lost for eternity. 

I can't believe 
 there's no God up in the sky
And I can't believe 
 He didn't come to earth for you and I
No I can't believe 
 His love can't rescue me 
 from all that is unholy
 including the sin inside of me

but I can believe 
 Your love is mighty
 and continually 
 surrounds me

I can believe 
 Your blood does cleanse
And Your love mends
 all that is broken
Till I am awoken
 to a brand new me...
The one you desire me to be.
 

Thursday, October 8, 2026

 The Love Divine
 that trancends time
 now and forever 
 is mine,   is mine

O Love Divine!
 How oft would I have died
 if not to me
You had drawn nigh!

O Love Divine,
 come fill my breast
 with my Lord's 
 eternal lovliness

O Love Divine 
 please teach my heart
 to always share
 The love You impart!

O Love Divine 
may I dine
 forevermore 
on Your bread and wine

Love Divine!
Cleanse me!
Fill me!
Mend me!
Thrill me! 
Till I
am a perfect reflection 
of Your Divine perfection 

I am secure
 in Your love so pure

I'll forever trust
 in your Divine Love

Monday, October 5, 2026

 I had an epiphany today. Really I did. I realized a lie and a truth, clearly.  I am no longer a sinner. I have been reborn, remade, reimagined - in the image of my Father. I am a new creation! My DNA is my Heavenly Father's now! I am born from above,  not below - I have been given power to become a Son of God! I am now born, not of flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God. I am born of the Word - not of Satan, nor man - but of God. He spoke of me before I came to be. He imagined me and smiled. His Spirit impregnated my heart with His seed, His precious Word - and like Mary, I have seen that Word mature within me - till this day arrived, this glorious day. I am my Father's son! My birthright is wonderful! I am led by the Spirit of God, therefore I am a Son of God.  I have not received the spirit of bondage again which causes fear - but I have received the spirit of adoption whereby I cry Abba! Father! The Spirit continually bears witness with my spirit that I am a child of God! All other thoughts to the contrary are lies from the father of lies. And if I'm a child of God  - I am an heir of God! And a joint heir with Christ! (if I suffer with Him - for men are still crucifying Him today, still rejecting Him, still despising Him and all who are of Him: that's me!)

Jesus, my elder brother,  was sent to redeem me for I was under  curse - the curse of the law of sin and death.  I could not free myself.  I could not stop sinning.  I was a slave,  but He purchased me with His blood - then adopted me as His own son - and because I am His son He sent His Spirit into my heart - The Spirit of His Son, crying ABBA! FATHER! The Spirit of Jesus Christ lives in my heart - I am no longer a servant but a Prince - a son, a joint- heir with Christ  - all He inherited is mine also - for it is my Father's will and good pleasure to give me His kingdom! I sit in Christ at the right hand of the Father  - so I rule and reign with Him now!

I am the spitting image of my Father! People say, ah, you resemble your Father! If He is awesome,  I am awesome.  If He is holy, so am I! If He is sinless, I can learn to be - for in His sight I am perfect  - I am perfect as He is perfect.  If He is love, I am love. If He is joy, I am full of joy. If He is peace, I am full of peace. If He is long-suffering,  so am I. If He is gentle, I am gentle. If He is goodness  - I am full of goodness.  If He is faith - I am faithful.  If He is meek, I am meek and lowly of heart. If He has temperance (self control), so do I. I have His Spirit,  therefore if He has a word of wisdom  - so do I. If He has a word of knowledge  - I do too! If He has faith - to move mountains,  I do too! This is my inheritance,  my birthright,  my heritage.  It is far more valuable than silver or gold - it has eternal value.  If He can heal - hearts or bodies - so can I. If He can work, that is, perform miracles  - I can too! ANYTHING is possible with Him inside  my heart. I can lay hands on the sick and they shall recover.  I can cast out devils and speak with new tongues and no deadly thing shall harm me. I can discern spirits and speak in any language known to man.  I can be translated by the Spirit anywhere He pleases anytime He pleases. Nothing man can do to me can harm me, be it fire or lions, it doesn't matter  - if man tries to use something God created  to harm me or my family  - it will fail spectacularly  - until and if He calls me home as a martyr - which is the highest honor I could receive.  

I can walk on water, defy the law of gravity and part the sea or calm the storm. I can command fire to fall to fall from Heaven to devour my enemies - and all they've created to bring death to my people.  I can speak as His oracle with every word I say coming directly from His mouth. I can do all my Father does if I keep my eyes continually on Him. I can look upon His face (in Christ) and live. I can lay waste to Babylon  - and set many captives free. I can rescue multitudes of souls for this is Jesus' birthright  and heritage and I am His co-heir and co-laborer, from henceforth and forever.  I can sing spiritual songs of deliverance  and healing to my brethren that will bless and deliver them from bondage.  Hallelujah!

I can UNDER all knowledge and all wisdom as the Holy Spirit chooses to share it with me. My body is His body - His temple. I can offer myself as a living sacrifice and be acceptable to Him because  I am covered in Christ's blood - which is eternal - therefore I am eternal.  I can breathe on people  and they will receive the Holy Spirit.  I can baptize them in the Holy Spirit as my elder brother Jesus did. I can fast for 40 days and 40 nights without food or water - because Jesus did (and Moses). I can withstand every onslaught of the enemy because the Lord is my Rock - my strong high tower, which I flee into. I can obey my Father's will perfectly  - for thus did my brother Jesus - who never left His Father's house - unlike me - the prodigal son.  I baptize my beloved Savior with my tears  I cry out with my whole heart and being - ABBA FATHER!

Saturday, October 3, 2026

 Slay me, O Lord, that I might live.
 Take me, O Lord, and give
 me to the poor and needy
 to those seeds that need watering
 to those orphans that need fathering 
 to those widows - so lonely 
 in need of love and care
 O Father  send me there!
Put me to death
 then save me by
 the power of Your breath!
Cleanse, cleanse me O God
 of all that is filthy and not
 of You - Your kingdom,  Your Truth, Your will
Now I'll continually fulfill 
 for I AM YOUR SON
 born of Your Spirit 
 inheriting all that belongs
 to Jesus -  I receive it
 all and I confess this 
 to be true -
 nothing, O Lord,  
 is impossible with You!

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