The best i can do

 is become so transparent 

 that people see You.

 The best i can be

 is more of You

 and less of me.

 For You are beautiful, 

 while i am ugly.

 Your touch heals

 while mine does nothing.

 Your words are Spirit 

 while mine are flesh.

 Your words are life

 while mine are death.

 And this one thing i know too well - 

 You alone can keep me from going to Hell.

 My greatest desire is to die

 that i may be buried in Christ,

 so that my rotteness can't be seen,

 only the Lord of my life....