One eye cries                         but the other won't 

 Part of me's died                   but the other lies

How long will I be double-minded?

Part seeing clearly  -  the other part blinded?

Oh I don't want to be 

                              Yours   -   partially...

It's all or nothing,  this I know -

for the Bible tells me so.

I really wish i would become 

like a child with his head on Your bosom.

I wish I had become the man whom

you desired when You formed me in the womb  -

not this wretched creature, with one foot in paradise, 

while the other half of my soul is still worldly-wise.

I wish I was innocent 

                  of all I've done and seen

I wish I was ignorant 

                  of what has made me unclean 

says i,

                      living the curse of

                                        .......the wavering

lamenting without repenting.........avails nothing