Inhaling the chilly mist of the harbor's breath,
I tentatively took another step.
The pale moonlight, straining with all it's might,
could barely find it's way on this dark and lonely night. 
But there are times when a man's course is set,
when necessity bids him to take another step.
When he feels deep in the marrow of his bones -
the call of the wild - the call to come home.

Of a truth we're too insulated, medicated, domesticated.
Without real challenges a man becomes a shell of who he's supposed to be,
which is why sports are so popular in society.
Yet most of us don't compete but watch them passively.
And me - and me?
I must break free. 
I must dig deep and totally
abandon myself to my mistress -
Mother nature in all her glory.
I must feel her, touch her, see her naked beauty,
not just watch her flirt with me on TV.
For too long I've lived vicariously
through movies or documentaries
that I've substituted for reality.

Wake me oh God wake me
Give me strength to finally
become the man I'm meant to be

The seagull's shrieks are music to my ears
the salty air blows my lungs clear.
The ship creaks as she bears my soul
to the wilderness where I must go
to die to my former habitation -
the rusting, decaying edifice we call "civilization"

Lord, I know You want my heart
But knowing it and doing it are often far apart.
Help me to do what pleases You.
Lord, I commit my heart anew.....




Jesus, forever Interceding
With the Father pleading
For all I am needing
In the narrow path
to the narrow gate.
All that can squeeze through
is all that is born of You.....

Under the shadow of Your wings
We rest and give You offerings.
And there
                  our hearts dare

      to    sing........

If I can't be free
be free for me
oh my sweet
butterfly away
butterfly away....

I fell to earth
far too soon
Don't you fall too
Don't you fall too....

We had our moments you and I
Together we soared so high
but I couldn't remain
where hearts unrestrained
go and take flight
into seasons of delight....

Where innocense keeps fear
far away and not near....
So

You my sweet
butterfly away
Don't retreat
but use your wings
to soar above
dark and painful things....

Stay where love is
Don't stray from it
Don't follow me
Stay where love is
Forever light and free.....

How I want to be remembered
is not how I am.
Oh how I wish I was
a much better man.
Sure I have my pluses,
things I'm proud I've done
but I've far too much baggage,
regrets far more than none.
So I offer my remaining years
as penance for the many tears
I've caused to flow.
My stubborn pride has brought me low,
yet just as stubbornly I cling to hope.
If you're a young man reading this -
avoid the mistakes that quench the bliss.
Humble yourself or someone else will.
Apologize often. Stay calm, be still.
Slow down, think before you speak.
Peace is the prize you should always seek.
Don't let your pride stand in the way
of the healing God is sending you today.
Keep your focus where it should be -
on our Father both Righteous and Holy.
Let His Spirit take the reins of your heart.
Receive the wisdom He longs to impart.
With God as your guide, you won't miss the mark.....

The greatest thing Satan loaths and fears is a human heart fully in love with and connected to the Father, as his heart once was. He despises true saints - Jesus' bride, for we've taken his place in Heaven. When he sees us, especially when he sees and hears us worshipping, he sees what he lost and he sees the Father again (boy, he looks just like you! The family resemblence is uncanny!)
He hates the Father, therefore he hates us. So flee religion, flee Babylon and don't look back (remember Lot's wife).

When the Holy Spirit is the one we are following and submitted to, the fruit of it, the sign, will always be the Father's presence, the Father's will being done and the Father being honored and glorified. Jesus said it - "Our Father which art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name". We must not exalt fleshly, earthly fathers or men over our Heavenly Father or spiritual Father for this is what religion seeks to do - exalt men while debasing God. Religion puts a man or men in charge and exalts them above due measure. The very desire to be in charge, to be lifted up above our fellow man is satanic - this was his very desire in heaven now expressed through men on earth, in earth - to be above everyone else. Shed your hearts of this desire, leadership, for it will destroy us, our ministry, for our ministry is to be like Christ, the exact opposite of Satan, who became a servant of all. Let this same mind be in you. Why else did he wash their feet? Wanting to keep being the boss comes from the flesh, not from God. If we are following Jesus we will want to be the servant of all not the Lord.