A glimpse of my life

 

I saw Billy Graham in Central Park (front row seat) and a Carman concert in the Bronx after dark and no one touched my car!

I've been to Nashville where i attended the "International Puppet Festival".

I've heard the ice on the river cracking at midnight - what a thrill! 

I've preached to a crowd of 7000 in India, saw miracles there, hugged lepers and blessed orphans.  I want to go back and build playgrounds for them. 

I've explored Ireland north and south and i visited Jeremiah's tomb there.

I found the mouth of the Han river in South Korea. 

I visited the World's Fair (twice).

I've seen many concerts in Koln, Germany (Fleetwood Mac,  Foriegner, Genesis,  Jackson Brown, to name a few).

I went to High School at an exclusive school for Diplomats children on the Rhine river in Bonn, West Germany. 

I once lived on the side of a Volcano in Maui, Hawaii (i saw the World's rarest plant there - the Silver Sword plant...only place in the world it grows is on top of Mount Haleakala).

I saw Dan Marino throw touchdowns in the Orange Bowl in Miami.

I saw Paul McCartney's one and only concert in South Korea with 80,000 Koreans - fantastic! 

I've  lead tours of the Mayan ruins at Chichanitza in the Yucatan peninsula,  and I've climbed the Pyramids (it was legal back then).

I climbed a glacier in the Alps in Austria (my training saved my life - i slipped and fell and was hurtling towards a cliff but stopped myself with my ice axe).

I climbed Germany's tallest mountain- The Watzmam.

I've been to the top of the Eiffel Tower.

I visited the Lourve and got to skip the three hour line.

I took a boat tour of Loch Ness where the monster caught a glimpse of me.

I swam in Lake Michigan in Chicago where i saw "The Bean" and

I swam in Crater Lake in Oregon at dawn (second coldest water I've swam in after tge mountain lakes of Killarney).

I've stayed in a cabin in Yellowstone National Park and in The Red Wood forest of Northern California. 

I built fires on the beaches of the Outer Banks of North Carolina and Northern California. 

I've seen the Grand canyon and got held up by outlaws on the train ride back.

I got lost at dusk in Joshua Tree National park and barely made it out alive.

I owned and operated a Buffalo Wing restaurant called "Wings N Things" in Panama City, Florida. 

I got baptized in the Jordan River and 8 white doves flew over my head as i came out of the water.

I went to the Garden Tomb on a Wednesday morning and it was empty! (Meaning there were absolutely no tourists - a miracle!) after spending 30 minutes alone with Jesus guess who walked in? One of my all time favorite ministers  - Jack Hayford! He laid hands on me and blessed me - hallelujah!

I bathed in the Dead Sea.

Mahesh Chavda laid hands on me and blessed me. 

I wrote and published a book - "Freedom from Babylon".

I spent three wonderful days on South Korea's crown jewel - Jeju Island. 

I worked as a DJ at a Christian Radio station where i started a program called "Youth 4 Truth".

I worked as a DJ at the USA's largest nightclub at the stroke of midnight New Year's Eve 1999.

I worked as a Cameraman and Master Control Board Operator at TBN Miami. 

I've been on the platform with the likes of Benny Hinn, Andrae Crouch and R. W. Schambach.

I met Mother Theresa.

I was an actor on a popular South Korean TV show called "Surprise"! I also appeared in a KIA commercial and in several movies and i did a promo for the Winter Olympics.

I've done interviews for BBC radio and the Far East Broadcasting Co.

I was the TV Coordinator for the very first onboard Television Station on any cruise ship anywhere   on Norwegian Cruise line's M/S Seaward where each week i left Miami and went to the Bahamas, Jamaica,  the Cayman Islands and Cozumel, Mexico. 

I ministered at Estonia's largest attended house meeting (at the time).

I've written over thirty volumes of prophecy and prophetic poetry (well over a thousand poems).

I picked a woman's name out of the phone book, called her up and married her four months later. She's given me two amazing daughters and 28 years of fantastic memories!

And this list doesn't include half the things I've done.....

 Lord, O God,

   eat my flesh,

    drink my blood,

   that in my death 

I may become good

   Consume me

I hate this flesh that's ruined me.

   Consume me

   For only in You

   will I ever be

       true

O God

My flesh is worthless 

apart from You

I need Your breath 

to live anew

Consume me

Cleanse me

Renew me

Send me

I just realized  - "I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me" - He brings His flesh and blood  to the table - for me to dine on - and the only appropriate response,  indeed, all I have to offer Him to sup on - is my own flesh and blood: "Take, eat Lord, this is my body broken for you - drink my blood - the fruit of a soul humbled and broke - The wine that gladdens your as your blood does mine. I am worthless without You, Lord.

Shalom my child -

Shalom to your soul.

Troubled one please know -

My peace I give to you

My peace I leave

For the joyous times

and the times you grieve

We are at peace

you and I

You are embraced 

by your Lord Most High

I do not leave you comfortless 

I do not forsake whom I have blessed

Whom I rescue 

I renew

I plant you by the riverof My presence 

where we'll fellowship from here to eternity  -

                                - how pleasant!

My love,

               come away with Me

               from all that is unclean

     alone  - you and I

      in the garden of My delight

My love,

open your heart and see -

I will never leave or forsake thee -

Shalom, My child,

Shalom - you are home -

The home built on the Rock of your Salvation 

 able to withstand all tribulations

 till the end of all that hates all that loves

Our sweet communion  - our everlasting union 

 is all your life should consist of .......

Your stubborn love

 never quit,

 never gave up,

 is legit.

 I tried so hard to run away,

 The Prodigal son's got nothin' on me,

But in the end I have this testimony  -

 You've loved me so steadfastly, 

 so faithfully  -  so stubbornly!

Stubborn love! Never quits,  never gives up -

How fantastic!

 With me till the end

 through all my rebelling,

 sees my nakedness, 

  sees my every sin

 yet chooses still

 to cover me and take me in - 

I will never deserve 

This love that has me completely unnerved, 

All my defenses,

my walls and my fences,

Blown away by the Hurricane force wind

 of Your stubborn love

 for this stubborn man 

 humbled by Your refusal 

 to my soul abandon  -

   THANK YOU FATHER

    THANK YOU JESUS 

     THANK YOU HOLY SPIRIT  

Vessels of God's Love

 

As i lay in my bed,

 these words popped in my head -

 "We are vessels of God's love"

 meant to give away what we are full of.

Vessels of God's love -

 meeting hurts and needs,

 gently and tenderly 

 giving what we've received. 

Vessels of God's love  -

 mending broken hearts,

 lives unwanted and abused

 from the very start -

 giving them what they were always meant to have -

 the love of their caring, heavenly Dad.

For we are vessels of God's love 

 meant to overflow 

 with what we are full of -

Vessels of God's love, 

 unable to not give

 our lives in service 

 to the One who lives

 to fill our souls with joy unspeakable. 

We must not spend our lives on ourselves  -

We long to make those around us well...

We live to love as He has loved us -

It's the least we can do in response, 

Oh Lord,  to You - to Your nail-scarred touch -

For we are now all vessels of Your love.....

 He minded not the things of God,

 attracted as he was to  Babylon. 

He'd much rather minister to the mob.....

.....and there he went.....

Jesus passed by without so much as a nod...

  as they stand straying...

   music playing 

only God knows to what extent 

they are seeking their own agenda 

    lives misspent 

as they stand disobeying

 always praying 

 never choosing to repent

I lament

Hell has enlarged herself

 by many souls who thought "all is well"

A deaf and blind generation stalks

 the fruit of the flesh

 as they talk, talk, talk, 

 they're sleeping with death.

What they call pleasure,

 what they enjoy,

 like Sodom and Gomorrah 

   will be destroyed...

and the churches are making a Titanic mistake  -

while their ship is sinking they continue to make 

music, going on as if all is fine,

while in reality  - they've been judged 

and found wanting  - ignoring true prophets, 

they choose to be blind

so then,  they cannot see

 the writing on the wall -

   "MENE, MENE, TEKEL - 

  YOUR KINGDOMS WILL FALL"

If you would only quit

your path of wicked descent!

If you would only cry

out to Me and lament 

in sack cloth and ashes - show your true condition!

Cause your hearts to approach Me in contrition...

Repent before Me - have no other chore

Lie before Me still, on the floor,

as your hardened heart breaks, 

the tears will flow

and wash you,  and take you,

where you must go

Rise from your sleep

Fall before Me and weep,

stop everything 

that My Spirit does not bring...

It is My Kingdom you should be building. 

Let My Spirit river overflow 

the banks of your soul

It's not too late to prevent this tragedy...

Only that which is fully surrendered to Me

will be allowed to be as it should for eternity...

Leave your religion my precious children, 

and come to Me

Forsake your gathering together 

in My name but not My ways...

You pursue your pride- driven lies,

not hearing and obeying what I have to say -

Forsake your flesh with it's lusts and desires  -

choose instead My Holy fire

and you shall be purified as the finest gold

and you shall, at the end, possess your souls.......

 Think about this: God's people after the flesh  - His own flesh and blood brethren,  did not recognize Himwhen He appeared among them.  Most had no idea He was their Messiah, their very God, the One they worshipped and prayed to in their endless religious ceremonies and rituals.  Most missed His coming completely.  Some actually begged Him to leave them. They wanted nothing to do with Him. Others recognized,  at least, that He was of God, if not God HIMSELF, yet they hardened their hearts against Him. Their leadership rejected Him to the extent they crucified Him.  They put to death the very One who formed them in the womb and breathed life into their nostrils.  They despised the One sent to deliver and save them. His very name (Jesus) meant "The Lord Saves". 

Now, let's take a look at God's people today - those born not of flesh only but of Spirit. "Christians". Many of them, too, have missed His presence  - unable to recognize Him spiritually,  as their God, when He appears among them in the person of the Holy Spirit  - when He visits them - just as the Jews, His people after the flesh did not recognize Him. Many  Christians today don't know who He is, what He looks like, what He sounds like, feels like,  spiritually.  Like then, many today disrespect Him, ignore Him or cast Him away from their presence: if He shows up among them in Spirit. They seek to crucify the Holy Spirit today just as they sought to crucify Jesus then. Anyone,  full of The Spirit  - walking in His anointing  - is asked (or told) to leave. Their ministry is put to death - usually through the power of the tongue. Leadership harden their hearts against Him today just as they did back then. They reject Him like the Pharisees did, so they can remain in charge of, in control of, God's people.  Because they are carnal and not spiritual  - they seek the praise of men  - they crave man's approval  - they lust for power,  position,  and authority,  all the while pretending to serve the One they've crucified (in their hearts). 

Yet, as then, so too today there is a remnant  - who readily and joyfully accept Him, who desire His presence,  who genuinely love Him and prove it by obeying Him. They learn His ways and His thoughts  - not man's.  They love people,  not programs, souls not sermons - serving,  not being served.  They are passionately,  wholeheartedly in love with God! Like the very first saints - they're separated from the religious systems of their day - called out of and away from it. They may visit a church building now and then - as the Spirit leads, but they prefer to meet in homes, where the Holy Spirit is welcomed and revered, and free to express the Father's will,  the Father's love and the Father's Son - Jesus.  They live in the moment  - not past or future glory. 

"For my people are foolish,  they know me not. They are stupid children and have no understanding.  They are skilled in doing evil but they do not know how to do good".

"The Ox knows it's owner, and a Donkey it's master's manger, but (my Church) does not know, my people do not understand ".

"Don't use Me as an excuse to do evil"  -  The Lord 

Remember,  the Devil quoted scripture to Jesus. He tried to present himself as a teacher of scripture.  It takes great arrogance and pride to teach the Word to the Word himself made flesh. Yet, that same spirit of arrogance and pride is manifested in pulpits around the world Sunday after Sunday.  Men feel qualified to teach and interpret scripture,  not because the Spirit of the Living God reveals the Word to them but because they submitted themselves to men, got man's approval and they teach according to man's understanding  - all carnal and fleshly,  all approved and inspired by Satan, not God.  I'm not saying every minister in denominational Christianity is void of God's Spirit  - but if they are anointed of him - they won't remain in religious bondage  - neither will they allow God's people to remain there. 

Without the Holy Spirit,  men quote the Word but apply it wrongly or misinterpret it or outright dispute it and disbelieve it. It simply cannot be understood by the carnal mind,  nor with the intellect alone. Many acknowledge God with their minds but do not believe with their hearts. This, my people, is a tragedy or should I say travesty. Make sure whoever you allow to feed you the Word is filled with the Holy Spirit and appointed and anointed to do so. Indeed, anyone who is fully surrendered to Him, filled with His presence,  is qualified to teach  - just as any saint can prophecy,  yet not all are prophets...just so, any saint can teach though not all are Teachers. 

This is one of the things Communion is trying to teach us - an outward expression of an inward reality  - a truth each believer is to express to the others - I am fully surrendered to Christ  - to the point where i allow Him to break me. I am in the same condition  as you - completely dependant on Christ to live (give me this day my daily bread) and at The Lord's table - His body and His blood are the great eqyalizers - making the rich man confess his poverty and the poor man confess his wealth. All flesh has all other flesh in common  - the only uncommon flesh that ever lived is the flesh we all consume together  - Thr flesh of Christ: given so we can transcend our carnal flesh to become His flesh. There is no one above another or below another - at the Communion table. 

Rights vs. Responsibilities

 

 I personally,  have no right to judge or criticize anyone else for their sin. I have been among the most vile of sinners because I willfully sinned long after I met The Lord; ignoring Him and choosing to sin instead. As far as i'm concerned,  I don't have any rights at all, nor do I have any reward laid up in glory, except,  perhaps,  the reward of getting there. 

I do have the responsibility however,  of obeying the advocate for all humanity  - the Judge of the whole earth. When He is grieving,  I want to identify with and join Him in His sorrow.  As He says - "mourn with those who mourn". Likewise,  when He is rejoicing,  I want to rejoice too. I want to see what makes Him rejoice and I want to react the same way He does.

When He, not I, points out sin and injustices, when He shouts "Woe to you, Pharisees - HYPOCRITES!" and He wants to use my tongue (or pen) to do it, it is my responsibility to obey. When He pierces the darkness of deception so thick upon the souls of mankind with His laser-light of Truth - sharper than a two-edged sword, I must obey Him, though at times the condition of my own heart is no better than the sinners He is confronting (He always points out sin - not to condemn,  but to save). 

I know that for me to enter into full-time ministry again,  my charachter must be Christ-like. My heart must no longer give secret sins safe harbor.  My will must be crushed till I no longer obey the will of my flesh at all - indeed, I want to despise fleshly lusts as strongly as I've despised His holiness in the past.

It's one thing to minister truth on Facebook, quite another to do it face to face - in a relationship with precious souls whom Jesus died for. So, this post is my confession  - my expression of my desire to exchange my wicked ways for His righteousness.  I have none of my own, not even a little.  I have all the rights of a prisoner - in chains, on death row. I have responsibility too, as an apostle,  to disseminate truth - as He chooses to to reveal it, to prophecy as He prompts me to, to surrender my heart to Him completely  - so He may love wholeheartedly those He leads me to, who desperately needs His love, His touch, His voice - not more religion - that introduces people to facts about Him, but does not make those facts flesh and blood, that doesn't model how to enter into and sustain a deep and intimate relationship with Him by entering into intimate relationships with the people He brings to us to love on His behalf. 

 When i feel love,

 deep and abiding 

 compassion for another  -

       That's The Lord.

When I'm moved to tears

 and i want to do something, 

 anything  - for someone, 

      That's The Lord!

   inside of me,

       being who he   is.....

Because my heart

  is void of love  or

  anything else resembling goodness  -

Unless the Holy Spirit 

  moves upon the face of my deep

   and commands in the darkness of my heart,

          "Let There Be Light"

   I will forever remain in darkness 

   without form and void...

Part Two

The broken-hearted, poor, blind captives Jesus was sent by the Spirit of the Lord to heal and set free were mostly found in the local churches  - the result of submitting to the spirit of religion and not The Spirit of the Lord.  He did not have very nice things to say to local church leadership either. He rebuked them firmly and soundly. He did not mince words. He called them the "blind leading the blind". He said they were "white-washed sepulchers" - looking good on the outside but dead on the inside.  He called them a "brood of vipers"  whose father was Satan. He was perfectly willing to meet with one of them, if they came to him, like Nicodemus  but by and large the pastors of his day spent all their time and energy seeking to thwart him at every turn.  They sought to trap him with their clever questions.  They questioned his credentials.  They mocked and slandered him and his ministry.  They ridiculed his disciples and when none of that stopped him - they crucified him. This was not their first attempt at murdering him.

Make no mistake - he is rebuking today's religious leadership as firmly and as loudly as he rebuked them in his day. He is delivering and healing his people today, as he did then. He is unmasking all of Satan's lies and schemes and bringing light and truth to the many held captive in darkness.  He is using apostles and prophets today as he has always done - to fulfill the Father's will. 

Those who constantly harp about submission to them are being exposed  - for only those with the true Father's heart, who are submitted to the Father of us all, should be submitted to. They will have no fleshly practices, motives or agendas. They will not be interested in quantity but rather quality.  They will not be seeking fame or gain. Earthly wealth will not appeal to them - they will simply be desiring to raise healthy children  - pure and mature children of the Most High God  - who in turn are capable of being anointed and sent by the Father to birth, nurture and mature more childre - who are all taught to follow Christ  - obeying his will completely,  not their own or any man's. 

As big of an unholy mess religion is,  God is able to deliver us from it - but how will you react when he shows up in your church, in your heart, and says to you personally "come, follow me"? Will you choose to quit following man? Will you become a true "follower of Jesus Christ"? Or will you yalk about that time Jesus showed up at your church,  for years to come - even using it as a recruiting tool? Well  there was this one time, God showed up and brother, people got healed!

STAND FAST THEREFORE IN THE LIBERTY WHEREWITH CHRIST HAS MADE US FREE, AND BE NOT ENTANGLED (yet) AGAIN WITH THE YOKE OF BONDAGE "! 

"Now we, brethren,  as Isaac was, are the children of promise.  But as then he that was born after the flesh persecuted him that was born after the Spirit  - EVEN SO IT IS NOW."

CAST OUT THE BONDWOMAN AND HER SON!!!

...have nothing more to do with them - they will derail your destiny in Me, saith The Lord  - till they steal your inheritance and rob you blind - you will end up blind to the truth of your own condition  - if you remain with her in your house - have no more to do with her, saith The Lord.  Cast her out I say! Whose son are you?  Selah.

Apostle Chris