Our flesh consistently desires to avoid Him and yet our souls know full well we need His blessing, His permission, to enter paradise when we breathe our last breath on this earth - so we concoct a religion that enables us to appear as if we are His people when all the while we are not. We are what Jesus referred to as "hypocrites". Hypocrite literally means "Actor". Is it any wonder actors are so highly exalted and honored in our present day society? We heap adoration and praise, not to mention millions of dollars, on people who make a living by pretending to be someone they're not. And our churches, our denominations, are full of hypocrites - actors pretending to be "followers of Christ" while all the time seeking their own will not God's. Yes, there are wheat among the tares, yes there are people who sincerely love the Lord, who love truth, in these types of churches....but if they do love and follow Him and not man, He will lead them out of religious bondage, out of Christianity as a religion and into the wilderness where He will personally feed them. Even today, when we take communion, each of us takes the bread and wine in our own hand and we feed ourselves (unless you're Catholic...let's not go there now). The disciples took the bread from Jesus' own hand and so must we. We must become close enough to Him that we are able to receive from Him for ourselves "ye need not that any man teach you, for the anointing which YE HAVE RECEIVED OF HIM abideth in you and teacheth you of all things, and is Truth". And may I say - His manna is delicious! Tastes like honey! And it's very healthy too...for your soul to prosper, you must eat of it. Your soul will prosper and be in good health by it. So start learning to feed yourself, hallelujah! You are not dependent on your pastor or any man for survival, for thy "Maker is thine husband"! And He will care for you from the womb to the tomb "which are borne by Me from the belly, which are carried from the womb; and even to your old age I am He: and even to hoar (gray or white) hairs will I carry you: I have made and I will bear, even I will carry, and will deliver you" (Is:46:3&4).....

Part Two : "The lesson of the manna"

Jesus will choose men to feed his sheep through them - but he will not choose men who care for or seek the praise of men - these men, like Paul, have learned not to care for the opinions or acceptance of men. This was the lesson God was trying to teach Peter when Peter esteemed men's opinions and honor - and denied Christ rather than men, and was heart broken because of it. This now was a man Jesus could use to feed his sheep. (though Peter did struggle with this throughout his life...Paul later had to rebuke him because he was honoring Jewish believers over gentiles).
Jesus said "I receive not honor from men" (Jn:5:41) "How can ye believe, which receive honor one from another and seeketh not the honor that comes from God only?"
The scriptural pattern of feeding God's sheep comes primarily through Apostles and Prophets - who do not desire to lord it over God's people or become their king. Teacher's give understanding of the revelation knowledge God brings forth but it is to ultimately teach the sheep to eat from the Good Shepherd's hand personally - to follow him and not themselves.
Remember now the lesson of the Manna (Exodus 16) - When God's people in the desert began to hunger, they cried out to God for sustenance (unfortunately, hardships are often the only way God can get his people to cry out to him)....And God himself personally provided for them with food from Heaven - "Manna", which literally means "what is it?". It was "The bread which the Lord hath given you to eat". "And the Lord commanded, gather of it, every man according to his eating." Everyone had to seek for, and gather, and eat God's food for themselves! God did not command Moses to gather it each day and then feed it to the people. He did not order the elders of each tribe to gather it and distribute it to the people. He did not order the people to gather it and bring it to Moses or the elders to redistribute it as they say fit. He even told them to "Let no man leave of it till morning", for if the did, it bred worms and stank. They were not to hoard it but gather it and eat of it each day. God is still feeding his people "manna" from heaven each day, each morning, if they will take the time to gather it. He wants us to seek him daily, he wants to feed us personally, on a daily basis.....with manna from heaven....in the form of words...spoken and revealed directly from his spirit to ours. "Man shall not live by bread alone but by every WORD that proceeds from the mouth of God". "Give us this day our DAILY BREAD (manna)". Jesus told us to ask our Father - He wants each of us seeking him daily for ourselves, not depending on our Pastor to feed us once or twice a week. This is a burden Pastor's (or anyone else), were never meant to bear and this is a practice that will anger God.
And where did the manna come from? Where did God choose to feed them this manna? "Upon the face of the wilderness". And when? "in the morning". They found the Manna as the dew melted and was gone up - we don't find God in structures made by man - we don't seek to be fed by him there. He is found in the wilderness, away from the things of man....he is found in that glorious sunrise, in the morning mist upon that lazily flowing river, in the flap of a quails wings or the silent passing of a deer. He is found early in the morning "MY voice shalt thou hear in the morning, O lord, in the morning will I direct my prayer unto thee, and will look up". Of his bride he says "who is she that looketh forth as the morning, fair as the moon, clear as the sun, and terrible as an army with banners?". The wilderness is distinct for this reason alone - it is completely absent of anything man made It is pure...untouched and untainted by man....if you, as God's child, choose to dwell there spiritually, you will find yourself in a camp full of others who have chosen to go there too...yet you must still seek and gather what he has for you daily on your own....churches are never to replace this personal seeking, this personal gathering and being fed by God personally. We are to go to church full....not empty....already fed, not starving....for God, for his presence, for his manna. "

Like Jesus, I will not receive the honor that comes from men - If I receive accolades from man, I put myself either above them or below them - both should be avoided regarding honor. Regarding servanthood, I should esteem them more highly than myself (as David did Saul) but I do not wish for them to esteem me more highly. Truly, I desire the honor that can only come from God for His honor does not exalt the flesh in any way. Beware of men's flattery, for it will subtly work it's way into your heart till you (inwardly) accept the place of honor they bestow upon you (outwardly). They will give you a platform, raised above everyone else, signifying that you are above them in wisdom, in God's calling and in the ministry He's called you to. They will offer to become your servants, they will name a special day in your honor and they will joyfully submit to you - while never submitting to God, never seeking to serve Him, never becoming His followers, only yours. They will believe and will convince you that their service to you and submission to your will is sufficient and indeed shows true godly character and sacrifice and humility. They will measure themselves with you and they will hold you up as the standard for godliness that all other's in the church must strive to live up to. They will follow your words, your teachings - never seeking to hear His words themselves - for they will convince you that your mouth is the only one God uses to speak to them You will come to believe you alone are essential to the life of the fellowship. You will come to believe that you alone are wise enough to decide which doctrines the people must believe and which are false. Apart from you, from your approval, they can do nothing, In this you will become as God to the people and they love to have it so (Jer:5:31).
You will embrace all of this, all the while convincing yourself it is God's will for His sheep....after all, you're their shepherd....but no shepherd has ever put sheep in charge of the flock, and no sheep has ever fed other sheep. When Jesus told Peter to "feed my sheep", he meant, "let me feed my sheep through you", hence, Peter ended up writing two books of the New Testament. Our one and only shepherd is and always has been Jesus himself - "I am the good shepherd, and know my sheep, and am known of mine". A good sheep knows his shepherds voice and another they will not follow. They certainly will not follow the voice of another sheep - "I am the good shepherd; the good shepherd giveth his life for his sheep". "But he that is an hireling, and not the shepherd, whose own the sheep are not..." hear that? The sheep belong to Jesus and Him alone - they are not the pastor's nor any other man's flock - they are God's. "And I will set up one shepherd over them, and he shall feed them, even My servant David, he shall feed them, and he shall be their shepherd" (EZ:34:23).
Learn this lesson - Pastor's are not the shepherds. They are sheep who have learned to follow THE SHEPHERD, Jesus, so that others may learn to follow Him too. By following their example. "Follow my example, as I follow the example of Christ" (1 Cor:11:1).

Part two coming soon...  

When you read my writings you're reading the revelation God has shown me, meat I hope, for your hungry soul, but not the main diet your soul consumes but an appetizer, whetting your appetite for the main course he's personally prepared for you.
"Behold, I stand at the door and knock: if any man open the door I will come into him and SUP WITH HIM AND HE WITH ME" .
My writings, or those of any other author, should never supplant your personal communion with Jesus himself through His most Holy Spirit. Hearing from God is my chief joy in life - surpassing all others except winning souls for my precious Christ. I hunger and thirst for him yet the more he reveals to me to give to you..the more i desire you to hear from him for yourself. I do not want you to ever make me or any man your only source of revelation. That is unhealthy. You should be in direct communication with God yourself, or learning how to. I want the anointing I walk in to pass on to you, even as you read these words. May you hear his voice clearly and may he become your chief joy and pleasure in this life and in the life to come, amen. 

Don't dwell on your flaws
dwell instead on Jesus' perfection.
Don't examine yourself
too closely, except to
see that you're in the faith.
Think upon whatsoever is
pure, lovely, of a good report,
in other words, think upon
Jesus.......
Keep looking at Him,
and soon you'll see
your face reflected
in His eyes - like a mirror
and, eventually, you'll
see yourself, not as the
world sees you - but
as He sees you -
altogether perfect and lovely
without spot or blemish,
not too young,
not too old,
A Bride worthy of Him!
Set your heart on
heavenly pursuits -
set your heart
on Him
daily drink deep
of the pure well
He has dug in you
The water of life
that so satisfies
that when you drink of it
you will never thirst again -
And eat and be satisfied
with the Bread of Life
which satisfies your soul forever.
Dwell beside still waters
in good pastures
in perfect peace and safety
And when battles come -
you will see - The Lord
is mighty on your behalf,
you will stand and not fall
in the evil day,
though 10,000 fall at your side
it will not come nigh you.
Your enemy will fall
but not you -
you will sleep soundly
amidst lions
and walk in the fiery
furnace and not even
have the smell of smoke
upon you.
You shall run and not grow weary,
walk and not faint
and all you do shall prosper
for you are about your Father's business,
and all you do is for His glory
You will journey with Him
far from the things of man.
Mount up now, with wings of Eagles,
and soar above the fray.
May the Grace and Peace
of our Lord Jesus Christ
be with your soul, forever. Amen.

"These are the days of wonder and joy
that I have longed for since I was a boy!
Since I was a boy it has been God's plan
to move me to a distant land
far from the thoughts of man.."